I wrote this May 7, 1999.

"A Year and a Half"

Perhaps it's time to say good-bye
I've been gone for a while
Perhaps it should stay that way
Been dreamin' again
And I know where that leaves me
Heart full of emotion
Head full of shattered hopes
For you, happily ever after came after I left
A year and a half
I cared for you, loved you
Stood by you as a friend
And for a while, as more
I cried with you on your bad nights
Rejoiced with you on your good
Feigned happiness as you told me of your love for her
As I silently cried
Stayed by you at your worst
Listened to you when you needed to talk
Smiled with you
Laughed with you
Took pain for you
For a year and a half
And now, to see it end this way
To not even be considered a friend
After all I have given, all I have tried
Through a year and a half
The laughter, the tears, are all one
To see my name erased
Expunged like I never existed
To notice you have nothing to say about me
After a year and a half
It blows my mind
How I can be nothing
Not even an empty spot
And you wonder why I leave
When you won't even miss me
After a year and a half
Wouldn't even think of me
Or see me, or care for me
Or write of me
Unbelievable it all is
To give somebody my all
And turn to nothing so quickly
I am disgusted, angry, hurt by it
And so I must learn to walk away
Forever
Even after a year and a half.

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